1986 Journal

 


This is my daily journal from 1986. It includes letters and other communication, as well as reflections of past years. There is some overlap with a non-fiction novel about Peggy Yacyniak, which is more from 1987, and is included elsewhere as well.


Hindsight Jan. 1, 1986

1983 was a very bad year? Jan. 2, 1986

And then there was Bill Jan. 3, 1986

Chaos again Jan. 4, 1986

Looking back at 1982 Jan. 5, 1986

Last days with Suzanne 1981 Jan. 6, 1986

A different man in 1980 Jan. 7, 1986

1979 a year of significant change Jan. 8, 1986

Two women named Michele Jan. 9, 1986

More about the other Michele Jan. 10, 1986

College isn’t the same as it was Jan. 13, 1986

Bureaucracy anyone? Jan. 14, 1986

Trying to impress me Jan. 15, 1986

Ships that pass in the night Jan. 18, 1986

A year of transition 1977 January 19, 1986

It was a very good year 1976 January 20, 1986

The disasters of 1975 Jan. 21, 1986

Change in the air in 1974 Jan. 22, 1986

Still bleeding Jan. 23, 1986

Michael is no archangel Jan. 24, 1986

Middle Class Phil Jan. 25, 1986

Looking back at the first visit Jan. 26, 1986

In search of heroes Jan. 27, 1986

The Challenger disaster Jan. 29, 2012

Hank as Peter Pan Jan. 30, 1986

Looking back at 1973 Jan. 31, 1986

A triumphant return? February 6, 1986

Back in Secaucus again? February 18, 1986

The return of the native son Feb. 1, 1986

Thoughts of death and dying Feb. 2, 1986










The old house December 3, 1986




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